““But you held your own,” she said, seeming to think this is really worthy, “and you were not writing in pain, either.””

Change ‘writing’ to ‘writhing’

“I take a deep breath and dare continue with what I feel, somehow, I just have to know. “Do you ever feel it’s unfair, that you are out here once this week for a few minutes, when Bea gets to look up at the sky every day?””

“…that you are out here once this week for…” change ‘this’ to ‘a’

“Again she gives me that wary look. “On other planets, as well as places that are not places at all.””

No ‘oops’…just wanting to comment on this (grin). The image that flashes is one of whales ’swimming’ through space…as if the black-space is their new home. (lol) Crazy, eh?

“She looks at me to see if I’m with her. I am, but she’s right, it’s hard to believe. And sad beyond measure if it is true. It think of Scottie, and what it would be if she didn’t want to be here on planet earth, and had never come to be with me. What if my kids never had a kitten to play with? Or a puppy? I feel a great lump chest, and like my heart can’t really beat right.”

“….if it is true. It think of Scottie…” change ‘It’ to ‘I’

“…I feel a great lump chest, and like my heart…” hmmm…wondering if this might sound better as: “I feel a great lump **in my** chest, (delete and) like my heart can’t really beat right.” ?

““When we don’t take into account this collective turning, we are doomed to be led without knowing. Without knowing, we are turning to the messages of our most basic instincts, not the higher ones we tend to chose after a genuine search of on our own values.”

“…higher ones we tend to chose after a…” change ‘chose’ to ‘choose’

““Maybe, maybe not. I only know what while each individual doctor intends to heal a patient, when you put a collective of doctors together, there will be decisions that make doctors look like criminals.””

“…I only know what while each…” perhaps needing to change ‘what’ to ‘that’ ?

:~)